So This is 30?

 

"Within tears, find hidden laughter. Seek treasures amid ruins, sincere one." -Rumi

 

Within tears, find hidden laughter Seek treasures amid ruins, sincere one.
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Within tears, find hidden laughter Seek treasures amid ruins, sincere one.
Read more at: http://www.azquotes.com/author/12768-Rumi/tag/laughter

Steve and I were married right before my 29th birthday. It happened to be my "golden year" you know, 29 on the 29th.  You could say I was ready for happy, blissful days with the man I love, my step-kids, and our two doggies.

   My job situation had finally become solid and I was feeling pretty good about life. Fast forward ten months later, my world was flipped. The last thing I ever expected was becoming a reality and now the task was to figure out to get rid of this mass in my chest.

    Ironically, I bought this Super Love Tees shirt, Good Vibe Tribe about a month before all this happened. The Good Vibe Tribe message, unbeknownst to me, became the launch pad that would carry me though this journey. I took this picture right before I went into pre-op for the big biopsy surgery. Maintaining positive energy was difficult at first and I'd be lying if I said I took it with ease. I knew I had to stay in the present moment, keep living life with positive energy, and not let the fear overpower me.

   The biopsy results finally came back. Seemed like a 50/50 chance of what it could be. If it was a Thymoma( non-c) the mass would be removed via surgery. If it was a Lymphoma (c) I would need chemotherapy and surgery was no longer an option. The outcome was the dreaded Lymphoma and just one month shy of my 30th birthday.

  As my 30th birthday arrived, we had a little party to celebrate. My Dad, his bro, and cousins were there to help us celebrate along with one sister and my bestie. My sister, having known I had started a mostly raw food diet, bought a very special birthday cake for the occasion. It was made entirely out of fruits and veggies and was the sweetest, most heartfelt gesture of love and support. 
 

    To mark the day, I envisioned us girls wearing flower crowns and taking pretty pictures, and that we did! We made our crowns, took pictures, played music, danced and frolicked through the neighborhood and shared our joy. Even during this seemingly dark time, we managed to bring the light with our love and laughter. I was not going to let the fear of the unknown stop the good times from flowing. So much laughter and love when you bring these dear ones together.

                                                             Next up... Unicorns!